I have it on good authority that I’m not the only one to question God’s logic or insinuate there might be some madness to His method, particularly in regard to the some of the things we are called by Him to do. The Bible records more than one instance where those chosen by God to accomplish a particular feat have doubted the appropriateness of His selection for the assignment. Moses was perhaps one of the more persistent in his skepticism. After being told by God that he was to go to Pharaoh and bring the Israelites out of Egypt, Moses questioned God repeatedly.
Who am I, that I should go …?”
“Suppose I go … then what …?”
“Well, what if …?”
“Pardon your servant, Lord, but you do know I’m not good at this, right??”
“Please send someone else.”
So many of us strive to find our place in the Kingdom and discover the particular purpose for which we were created, but when God finally reveals it to us we are often terrified and run screaming in the opposite direction. We question, like Moses, why God would choose us for a calling we are so ill-suited to fulfill. We feel compelled to inform God of the many shortcomings we possess that, in our humble estimation, rendered us quite unsuitable for the assigned task. And in the end, many of us plead with Him to send someone else, and even go so far as to identify better candidates – just in case He overlooked them initially. (What other explanation could there be for His having picked us ???)
I recently found myself wrestling with God over this very thing, and His rebuke was gentle, yet piercing. To summarize, he told me that it was presumptuous (even arrogant) of me to tell Him things about myself as if He didn’t already know; that I cannot possibly know myself as He knows me – the one who created me and knit me together in my mother’s womb. Beyond that, He reminded me that I was created for the very purpose that I was now telling Him I wasn’t equipped to handle.
You can see how this conversation did not turn out like I thought it would. What I saw as humility, He called arrogance. In pointing out what I thought were my shortcoming, I was really accusing Him of falling in short in the way He designed me. Yikes!!! God’s response to me is reminiscent of His reaction to Moses in Exodus 3.
“Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the LORD? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.” Exodus 3:12
Having accustomed myself to things not making sense and God’s counter-intuitive logic, I honestly felt my purpose was yet another demonstration of just how backward He can be. But the profoundness of His response to my Moses-like skepticism is that His calling on my life is decidedly not backward. I was made by Him on purpose for a purpose, therefore, in Him, I am and have everything I need to fulfill that purpose.
Some things are just that simple.